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March 25th, 2004

02:08 pm - Hi my name is kellie and... I had an extremely terrible experience on Tuesday that has to do with alcohol. Therefore I quit drinking and smoking. Both of those things disgust me. I can not stand the thought of alcohol much less would I be able to bare the taste or smell for that matter. This is my story and I'm sticking to it. Please don't try to tell me otherwise, because I don't care to hear it. So this morning I woke up with X's all over my body. I went to Thriller lastnight and they put X's on your hands naw mean? So then I was like yeah I'm going to bed and when I woke up they were all over me and shiate! Yeah... Emma and I had a sleepover lastnight. SO MUCH FUN! I don't even remember how much fun we could have together. It's been so long. Dave is getting us into LiveWire tonight! Guest List, what? I love that guy so much. So yeah there's my agenda. Live Wire. hahahaha k late. Current Mood: sore Current Music: Kansas - Dust In The Wind.

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March 22nd, 2004

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05:30 am - well you know what i hate? i hate that im not over you. i hate that i dont think i could be over you. i hate that i compare everyone to you. i hate that you're so important to me. i hate that i can't say your name in my livejournal. i hate being discreet. i hate knowing you have no idea im actually talking about you. i hate your past. i'll probably hate our future. we never go anywhere. we've stayed unstable for too long. it's about time we step up, move on. i know i can't live without you. i don't see what trying to would do. maybe hurt me that much more? yeah.. probably. i know you think i've changed. it's out of lack of better things to do. i'd change back for you. i miss you. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: My dryer.

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March 20th, 2004

12:48 pm - NEVERMIND, I DID ANOTHER ONE! 1.)using band names, spell out your name Killswitch engage Every time i die Loftus Living End In flames Exitium 2)have you ever had a song written about you? Yeah 3) What song makes you cry? Hmm.. I'm not sure.. But I know there's one or two. 4)What song makes you happy? Alot of 'em. 5)What do you like to listen to before bed? Marilyn Manson. a p p e a r a n c e height: 5'4 hair color: Black skin color: Uh.. I'm Caucasian. eye color: Hazel-green piercings: 2 tattoos: 1 r i g h t n o w what kind of pants are you wearing?: Jeans what song are you listening to?: Nothing what taste is in your mouth?: Nothing what's the weather like?: It's hot! how are you?: I'm chipper. get motion sickness?: Nope have a bad habit?: Biting my nails I guess like to drive?: It's alright f a v o r i t e s tv show: Family Guy, Simpsons. conditioner: Dove. book: The Celestine Prophecies. non alcoholic drink: Water. alcoholic drink: Whateva. thing to do on the weekend: Hang out with friends, Watch movies, Mess around, SLEEP. h a v e y o u broken the law: Yeah, it's bad news. ran away from home: Yeah, when I was little. What was I thinking? snuck out of the house: Yeah. ever gone skinny dipping: No ever tipped over a porta potty: No used your parents' credit card before: Yeah, but they knew I was using it. skipped school before: Yeah fell asleep in the shower/bath: No been in a school play: Yeah l o v e girlfriend/boyfriend: Guh. I kind of want one. Current Status: Single. sexuality: I guess you call it... "confused" children: I want 2. current crush: It's a secret. I love secrets. had a hard time getting over someone: Naw.. if it's time to move on, it's time to move on. been hurt: Yeah, I have had this happen to me. your greatest regret: I don't believe in regret. gone out with someone you only knew for three days: Ah.. Nope. r a n d o m do you have a job: No :( your cd player has in it right now: Saves The Day, I think. if you were a crayon what color would you be?: Red what makes you happy: My friends. what's the next cd you're gonna get?: I dunno time you cried: Like a week or so ago? you got a real letter?: Oh god I don't know. you got e-mail: Yesterday! Michael!! tv program you watched: I dunno. movie you saw in the theater: I think it was The Butterfly Effect. y o u r t h o u g h t s o n abortion: Pro-Choice is murder. teenage smoking: BAD NEWS. spice girls: Good news. dreams: I fancy them. weed: bad fucking news. disgusting. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: HIM.

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March 18th, 2004

02:48 pm - hard news... taken harder. blah. i can't believe lastnight. the night i had. it was so funny. got cut. got a ticket. ran outta gas. got yelled at. at least i feel alive. at least i feel. i didnt feel anything lastnight. not until i got cut, ticketed, fucked, and degraded. i had no emotions. i didn't feel human. i was so numb by not caring that... i just didn't care about anything. i'm glad i know how to feel again. even if it's shitty. it makes me happy. and on top of that yahoo is being a bitch! michael i hate you. ok i dont. schwede and i had this weird bonding experience lastnight. it actually, in the end, meant alot to me. i probably would have been sitting alone crying if it werent for him. he's such a good fuckin guy when it comes down to it. such a sweetheart. i've decided that i hate drunk people. everyone i know that gets drunk is annoying when they are drunk. i will still continue to get intoxicated every now and again. but not so much at clubs. god i can't STAND drunken retards. i use to think i could never date a straight edge guy... now i think that's the only kind of guy i want to date. kellie needs to get into school so she can move out. guh. Current Mood: animated. Current Music: AFI.

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March 17th, 2004

03:22 pm - sexalicious. wow. jenn and i are so hot. you want a piece of our asses. "any guy would be lucky to have a threesome with us." "i know." we slip and slide as we fall in love. and i just cant seem to get enough. ok thriller tonight. fun times. you know the drill. well no you dont. but neither do i. im feeling good. It's hard to say I could never not have you in my life. But what's done is done. I'm sorry it ended the way it did.... Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Dashboard Confessional - So Beautiful.

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March 16th, 2004

12:24 pm - they call me U-S-H-E-R R-A-Y-M-O-N-D. oh wait! no they dont. Here are two pictures that are extremely dear to my heart. Everytime I look at them I am reminded of why I love her so much. Why I would spend the rest of my life loving her. Why she is my best friend. Why she is my entire world. Why she is the only one I can depend on. I love you so much Emma. I don't know what I would do in this life if you weren't there. "I never said I wasn't gonna tell nobody baby. No baby. But this good loving I can't keep it to myself. Oh no. When we're together it's like hot coals in a fire. Hot baby. My bodies burning so come on, heat my desire. Come on, Come on. Two of hearts. Two hearts that beat as one. Two of hearts. I need you, I need you. People get jealous 'cause we always stay together. Yeah baby. I guess they really want a love like yours and mine. Together forever. I never thought that I could ever be this happy. Yeah baby. My prayers were answered, girl you came in the nick of time. I got this feeling that you're going to stay. I never knew that it could happen this way. Before I met you I was falling apart. But now at last I really know where we are. Two of hearts. Two hearts that beat as one. Two of hearts. I need you, I need you. Thank you so much, Emma. You do so much for me. I couldn't ask for a better best friend. <3. Current Music: Stacey Q.

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10:51 am - die die die my darling, dont utter a single word. Fuck it. Fuck you. I don't even want to think about you anymore. Much less talk to you or see you. It's your own fucking fault for lying to me, you fucking asshole. Fuck off, thanks. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Taking Back Sunday.

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March 13th, 2004

02:15 pm - cant update worth shit. i really cant update worth shit. i have nothing to say to any of you. haha. i write in my myspace journal alot. i dunno why i have this. ive been hanging out with jenn alot. i saw ryan lastnight. random. but nice. i started talking to philippe again, wow, amazing he's a good kid. um. jeremy, he's good. bff, or something. omg i saw dustin lastnight. random yes? yes. it was awesome. i love when old friends call me. anyways i dont have anything cool to say im so fucking lame apparently alright here you go and late. (_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK (_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT (_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX (_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX (x) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR (_) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN (_) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI (x) I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX (x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE (_) I NEVER HAD SEX (_) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC (_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED (_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED (x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED (_) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT (x) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME (_) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE (x) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY) (x) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING (_) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF (x) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX (_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX (x) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED (_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER (x) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB (x) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE (_) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE (x) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND (x) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER (_) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS (x) I NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE (_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL (_) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER (x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE (_) I NEVER HAVE THROWN UP IN A BAR (_) I NEVER HAVE PURPOSELY SET A PART OF MYSELF ON FIRE (x) I HAVE NEVER WATCHED A JOAN CRAWFORD MOVIE WHILE ON MUSHROOMS (x) I HAVE NEVER FOUND MYSELF ON A ASIAN GAY RENT BOY PORN SITE. Current Mood: numb Current Music: Halfway Home.

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March 10th, 2004

10:33 am - Our hearts beat from the same device. we build these walls just to watch them crumble. and proclaim their decay. but until that day ill bend you till you break. hear the angels voices resinating down like so. feel my hands around your throat. our hearts beat from the same device. there's no use in living this life, for tomorrow we die. i love chas' band. they're so cute. listen to them... http://www.phunix.org/music/halfwayhome-fortommorowwedie.mp3 thank you. anyways... i got really inebriated two nights ago and did something i swore i would regret, hath he regretted it as well. but he didn't. so i didn't. and i'm happy about that. cause we are living in a material world. and i am a material girl. not really. but madonna is cool. TODAY IS WEDNESDAY! THAT MEANS THRILLER! I CAN'T WAIT. To Do List: Buy new septum ring. Feed myself. Go to a dumb boys house to pick something up. Get ready for THRILLER. Find some way to get alcohol. GO TO THRILLER. HAVE FUN AT THRILLER. Go home & sleep. All with Jenn<3. 'Cause she came back up again for THRILLER. Awh<333. I seriously love my Wednesdays. They always end up being good days. Thanks to Thriller and amazing girls named JENN<3. K bye. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Stacey Q - Two Of Hearts.

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March 8th, 2004

01:46 pm - Keep breathing. Keep that sweet heart of yours beating. Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take. Reminding us how far we've come. Let the pain burn away from our hearts. We have time to start all over again. If you would shine your love down here. Make our hearts as perfect as new. If you would shine your love down here. I promise I'll reflect it right back at you. I'm so sorry about all of this. I want to make you happy so badly. That's all I want to do. I want to make you happy. I know I do make you happy... but it's this insatiable stability which I crave. I need to make you happier. I need to make you the happiest person alive. Anything you want, anything you need, I'll do anything. I care so much about you... Even though we're just friends, you mean so much more to me. I hope you know that. I hope you can see it. I love the person I've come to find in you. Though I may still be getting to know you, I love what I know. I love what I see. I've had some really shitty times lately and you made me feel like I was worth something. Our late night talks... Our heart to hearts. I enjoy them so much. I can have so much fun with you, I'm completely comfortable, Yet I still get butterflies every time I see you. When you talk to me and tell me sweet things I still blush, get flustered, and don't know what to say. I try my best not to sound like an idiot, but it's hard. Anyways, I'm just blabbing... I just want to let you know that I care alot about you. I'm glad we became close. Though we may just be friends.. and wether it stays this way or not.. I will always care about you... and my feelings will just get stronger as time passes. Thank you for making me smile when I was so extremely down. You're the only person I know who could of done it. I thank you for that. <3 Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Copeland - Coffee.

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